It never gets real until you buy the ticket.
It just got real.
I have been on a long journey over the last 18 months; sometimes dramatic and sometimes mind-numbingly boring. Three months ago, I got to the point where I was looking for something, anything, to make me feel alive again. It came to me in the form of a facebook message from my dad who was at a youth congress in Africa. My dad works as a youth director for my church and was travelling with a group of youth in SA. I was pretty jealous.
Dad suggested that I do some volunteer in Europe, at a school in Denmark.
DENMARK!!!!?!!!!..... Awesome!!!
I straight away went online to look at the volunteer positions that were available. And I found one; nicely nestled in between the hectic ones going to Oman and Uganda. Assistant dean position at Vejlefjordskolen, Denmark.
I started feeding dad all of the details about the job. He started back peddling as fast as he could. Apparently he wasn't as serious as I was! Well, what did he expect?!
And from that moment on (almost), I was a girl on a mission.
When Dad got home from Africa, I discussed my big dreams with my parents. They asked questions like, "Can you physically do it?" "It's a serious move away from your family," and "What will you do if you get over there and it turns to custard?" All good and sometimes frightening questions!
After some discussion my mum suggested that I throw out a fleece, like Gideon did in the Bible.
What would my fleece be?
"Well, why don't you make the first fleece passing the medical?" I know that doesn't sound like much, but it really was. After 18 months of gradually recovering from complications from a medical procedure gone wrong, this was a genuine concern and seemed insurmountable.
We all agreed that passing the medical would be a good fleece.
Mum said that if I wanted to be really sure, then I could always put out a second fleece; again, just like Gideon. If my second fleece passed, I would know that it was a green light from God. It would be all over.
Dad said, "How about we get through the medical first hey?"
So we decided to do that.
Fleece number one.
I made appointments to see two different doctors that know me well. (I wanted two so that there would be no doubt!)
Doctor No.1 had been dealing with all of my complications since last year, and he had been pretty concerned about me. I told him about what I was considering doing. Over the course of our conversation, his stance moved from "I can't really tell you what to do as a doctor" to "You've gotta go! It'll be awesome!"
Mind blown!
Could this be the passing of the fleece?
Doctor No.2 - I turned up to get my medical done and when I told him which country I was applying to go to and what I needed the medical for, his response was "I used to know the Ambassador! Denmark is a wonderful place! Don't be afraid; you are going to love it!" The medical was not only passed, but bulk billed.
MIND BLOWN!!!
Well looks like the first fleece passed the test!
I sent in my application.
Life settled back into a familar routine, I carried on with my study and my attention shifted to other things.
Here comes the amazing part.
Fleece number two.
I can't really talk publically about how amazingly things happened, but let's just say...
The second fleece passed the test!
I came home and told mum about what had happened.
"Well, it looks like you're going to Denmark."
In addition to this, I cannot tell you the number of comments, situations and even illustrations from the pulpit (I kid you not, mid sermon - "You should do something crazy, like, live in Denmark for a year") that have reinforced and motivated the feeling that I had to go. Another example of this was an unsolicited special blessing prayed over me by a Pastor friend - that "God would bless me in the hallways of wherever I was going to next." Truly amazing! (Thanks Lili!)
And all this without anyone outside of my family knowing I was considering volunteering.
Despite these seemingly clear signs, I have gone through major times of doubt, when things in my life were going so well, so comfortably. I questioned whether I should really go or if I should stay. There were weeks when I wanted to pull out of the whole thing.
Literally last weekend I told one of my friends that I was 95% certain I was not going to go.
The next morning I woke up and prayed "God, tell me what is going on in my life! Can you just give me something to go off here! And make it really clear what I am meant to be doing!! Seriously!! Argh!" I know. How rude.
Nek Minut.
My phone went off. The familar sound of my email notification rang in my ears.
I opened it up and BAM. Congrats, you got the job.
Clear enough? Guess so. Yep, that pretty well does it.
Two days later (after recovering from organ shut down from severe panic) my ticket was booked and paid for.
Sydney - Dubai - Copenhagen
So here I am! Madly trying to finish my passport to mission!
First things first. Shopping!!!!
I am now the proud owner of one high tech (hot pink!) fleece jacket, a pair of super cool Danish winter approved pants, some thermals and an awesome pink universal power adaptor from Forever New. Things are looking good! :)
I am taking my first steps to what will be one of the first major highlights of my adult life and I couldn't be more excited and more trusting in God's leading than I am right now. (Actually, pretty sure I might be a tad more excited when I board the plane!)
This blog will follow my faith journey into Scandinavia; the adventures, the homesickness, the amazing God moments, the people I meet, the food I eat (or don't eat!) and the places I will go to!
I hope that reading my story will inspire you as much as it does me!